The old adage of “What a difference a year makes” is so true. And it’s not really been a whole year yet, and my life has changed so much. Whilst my first time in front of the camera was actually under a year ago, it feels that I’ve gathered a lifetime of experience already. It’s been a whirlwind journey, and I’ll tell you why.
If I wind the clock back to when I first started my working career, it was a Youth Pastor for a couple of churches in my home town. This was followed by a stint working a Youth Worker in the local council. Wind forwards a year and I moved to Finland with my family, and worked as a Day Care Asssistant . Jump forwards a few years, and I am working in IT support. This lasted over 13 years until I was made redundant when my role was outsourced. During the next few months I took a moment to gather myself. At this time a number of good friends helped encouraged me to try the door to working in front of the camera.
My first step
My first photoshoot shoot, and time in front of the camera was with with Maria Kimalle. We discussed in advance, the kind of preparation I could do for the photoshoot. Even so, I wasn’t actually sure what to expect. Using rock music to set the atmosphere, Maria gave me some tips on working with the camera.
The cover photo for this blog is one of the very first pictures we took. Once the ice was broken, we looked at some of themes I had in mind. And this is where things got interesting.
In front of the camera, I found that there can be a very safe and non-judgmental space to present yourself. In many ways it was one the most cathartic and thereputic experiences I have had. Even though there a photographer present, she was hidden behind the camera. This somehow gave a freedom to me to let down my guard and explore some deep personal themes. I was able to express anger, grief, goofiness, and even a gentle sensual side. Most importantly, I was able to start accepting my scared and imperfect body.
.. and then when it get’s professional
It’s one thing to bring your own material to the photoshoot or filming. When your are being paid, it’s a whole new ball game. I needed to very quickly learn how to put away my “self” and step into a role. As a TV extra, this isn’t too much of a jump . Very often the advice is “just be yourself” and react naturaly to what is going on. Sometimes the role is more challenging, and you have to even portray someone who is against your values.
This post is merely an introduction to this blog. A picture painted with broad stokes, if you will. I’ve got lots I’d love to share with you, and I’ll write soon!
Cheers,
Alex.